The emptiness
Surrounds me

I am sucked into the vortex of pain.

The endless headache
Reminds me
I am alive
But just barely.

What kind of life
Is this
Without you?

What is life
Without love?

I should be used to this
By now.
My adult life
Is a tormented sea of pain.
I am drowning
In the sea of despair
The angry sea
Of lost love.

The waves lift my body
Effortlessly
Tossing me again and again
Against the rocky coastline.

Again I ask myself
Do I want to survive?

Terror filled dreams
Haunt my precious
Sleep time.